i don't know where i've been for the past 5 months. but here i am again. i need to start doing that which make me happy. i've realized that i'm the only one who is to blame for my unhappiness. i haven't been sleeping properly, eating properly, going to school like i should, living like i should - period. i've been neglecting things that are important to me like my studies and i've been dwelling in god damn heartache for far too long. i feel like a new person. i'm beginning to make a conscious effort.. so that in due time, these simple things will become the subconscious and a part of me once again. when people run in circles, its a very, very mad world. but my path isn't leading around and around like that anymore. i'm back on the path. the white flowers are blooming as i take every step. i don't see the little boy when i make it through the opening anymore. i see me - every part of me through the tall grass playing with that white elephant.