don't mind if i fall apart...

with daylight creeping upon us, we once laid hidden beneath your sheets. sharing secrets, we knew nothing but each other; ignoring the alarm clock, the phone calls, the yells from upstairs, the rest of the world didn't matter than. now i know i wanted you for nothing more, than hating you for what you are. you broke the little bit of what was left of my heart. you trapped me, you took my breath away, you sung me to sleep. you whispered ever so softly in my ear, and told me all the sweet things i've yearned to hear. you gave me new found hope. that "this could be our perfect moment". you make getting caught up in you and your fake world so easy. it's so easy to fall down. but i can't do this anymore. i refuse to be a spec in your life. i hate myself at times, but i know i am more than nothing. and i know i could be everything to you. and i was hiding it all before, but now i'm bleeding through and right out. as i do, out goes the sound of your voice, the every movement of your hand along with mine, the taste of your kiss, the warmth and bliss you brought to life deep inside of me. what's left now.. a shattered dream of a poor, lifeless girl who let down walls and broke down barriers at her chance for something real, to be suddenly stopped in her tracks to discover she was never going the right way in the first place. and to think it felt so right. to think your eyes were the only thing that once mattered to me. you never told me what your dancing dream was.. by now, i can only believe it was filled with miserable intentions. so i'm done writing your song because the ending got twisted around. i can breathe now, but the air is running out on me. i know when i'm done with this ending, i can begin somewhere new. winter will pass, and i will become invisible in the summer, but the seasons will keep on going. warmer months will be no match for the calendar.