i'm not even close to being over this and i cannot bare to put josh through the emotional turmoil i experienced because of mark's past. i miss the blue box. i need to apologize. everytime i'm convinced things are definitely brighter, which granted they are, i get slapped in the face again. how do i find closure when we never ended what we had? i lay my head to sleep at night and stare at the tree crawling up my wall. our reality. i miss the elephant shoes, it makes me sad.
writing is too difficult right now.