i love my mother with everything i am. tonight, i miss her very much. i just called her to tell her i love her. and that i appreciate everything she's ever done for me. living on my own has taught me that you are lucky if you even have one person you can trust in this world, one person who considers your safety, your health, your happiness in every step they take, every move they make. i am so grateful to have been blessed with such a selfless mother. i look up to her in more ways than one. i wonder if she knows how highly i speak of her. the contemplation of calling her back or not has arisen. i'd like to ask her to come over so i can give her a hug. it's very easy to feel alone and uncomfortable in this house, especially when the housemates fight. i need something familiar right now. for now, i squeeze my teddy bear and keep to the sky.