digital blasphemy

it's 12:15 and i just woke up! my roommates are really interesting people. stan is incredibly christian and is very open minded. he gave me a bunch of books on quantum physics and feng shiu which is what he noticed i'd like to do to my bedroom. this morning, though, i woke up completely disturbed. beyond disturbed. i had dreamt that my roommates and i were living in toronto, and andrea, who is a nurse took me to her patient's house, but the patient turned out to be ceased in a coffin.. and by the time i ran home, cop cars were everywhere and this oriental man had tried to break into our houses and shoot at our lock, trying to bust down the door. i ran to the neighbours house and begged for them to bring me in, but the wouldn't let me in their house because they said i had an attitude that of a smoker. and than when i finally built up the courage to make it back to my house, this boy was in my bedroom with a barrie north collegiate gym uniform on. we were cousins? and than i locked the door, and closed the window to block out the sound of gun shots and screaming children.
i think that perhaps going back to north was a good choice.. i need familiarness now. because in that, there's comfort. i think i'm really scared of being on my own. i am safe here in my room, it is me. i think i'm analysing my dream.