i almost forgot the feeling. i felt as though i was almost rid of it. i wonder if you ever stop hating everything around you for even a few short moments, and realize your life could be so much better. i understand that your past does not sit with you well. you have run into, and backed yourself into trouble along your twisted path. you've had it rough, i'm not going to pretend i don't realize that. but if you made it through.. why couldn't you find the strength to pull through a better person? what got in the way? you haven't learned a thing and i lose myself in that. don't you want to see the light? wouldn't you rather? no matter how great anything is surrounding you, you make it into something negative. if i listen to you, and respect you in any way i can, you pick and pick and find a flaw, ignoring how pleased you could be with me and therefore yourself, for getting your point across. and i can't distinguish whether this worry and concern is out of some form of love, or not. lately, i've been trying to be a bigger person. i've stopped myself from sinking to your level, on countless a time. because i am being that exact person i hate. and that disgusts myself to no end. i'm pretty tired of dealing with you. and i want out. call me selfish, but i've tried and you attack who i am inside everyday. and i don't need that in my life. i am far too happy to let you drag me down.